viernes, 22 de julio de 2011

The end of my childhood

I've already seen Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 twice, even though it is obviously not as good as I would like it to be, even though there are some parts that are rather lame and some parts which they've invented and some parts which are just missing.
But its Harry Potter.
It's what I've spent my childhood, my teenage years, obsessed with.
It's thanks to Harry Potter that I began reading seriously, all those years ago.

We defended the Stone, we found the Chamber, we freed the Prisoner, we were chosen by the Goblet, we fought alongside the Order, we learnt from the Prince and we mastered the Hallows.

We are the Harry Potter generation.

And now it's ended. That part of my life is gone, it's over.

domingo, 17 de julio de 2011

Why do I still want you?

Randomly listening to: Hope you're happy by Lene Marlin

How can I still want you when I don't even know you? How can I still want you when you regret having kissed me? How can I still want you when I know what you've done? How can I still want you when I can't even understand you?
Does my naivety have a limit? 
And I just want you to talk to me, to explain to me why you are the way you are, why you've hurt me, why you've done what you have. I want an explanation that I will never get.
It sucks.
I guess I can't believe that the boy who asked for a hug in the complete darkness in my bed and then kissed me so gently could have a bad heart. And I guess I can't believe that he didn't feel anything.
I wish I was the kind of person that could let it go. I wish I could not care. 

But most of all, I wish I didn't still want you.

Sorry that I could not be as perfect as you wanted me. Just wondering what's going on in your mind.

viernes, 8 de julio de 2011

It's days like these...

It's days like these when I wish I could call you and you'd pick up. When I wonder what I ever did to push you away. When deep inside I know it's not my fault but I still feel like I must have done something terribly wrong to not deserve your friendship anymore.
It's days like these when I need you the most and you're not there that I wonder if things will ever be the same. When I want to stop believing because it hurts so much when you disappoint me yet again, but I just can't. When I wonder if my naivety has a limit.
It's days like these when I'm lying awake in my bed and I wonder how in the world can it not hurt you in the slightest to walk away. When I wish that you still meant that forever. When I want to go back in time to the point where you decided to let me go and make you change your mind.
It's days like these when I remember our times together and I can't help a tear running down my face, because I've done everything humanly possible, but it hasn't been enough to keep you by my side.

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost in our lives due to neglect, anger, or sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered.