martes, 23 de noviembre de 2010

Cute guys and actually talking to them

Listening to: Why Can't I? by Liz Phair

And when you say hello, and I reply almost silently, I wish I had the courage to say more.
And even though I've been here before and I've survived, it seems impossible for me to get any closer.
And your smile makes my day.
And all these thoughts run through my head:
"Could he ever like me?"
"Has he looked at me?"
"Does he even know my name?"
And I wish that I was just like your pretty friends who you talk with.
And I am so jealous of them.
And I just feel like a thirteen year old again.
And my insecurities just get the best of me.
And I don't know how to do this anymore.

Walking down the street and I hardly know you. Its just like we were meant to be.

domingo, 14 de noviembre de 2010

Things I never knew about friends I thought I knew

Randomly listening to: This is the last time by Keane

I just came back this afternoon from my second weekend home. It was great being back home,seeing my friends...Finding out things I never knew...

F2 has found herself a boyfriend. It is not any boyfriend either, it's her first. A big deal, anyone would think. The funny thing is how I found out about this: my mum told me. My mum. I found out that one of my best friends had started dating thanks to my mum. Just take a minute to process this.

So then, of course, after my initial shock, I decided to ask her what the hell my mum was talking about, and she replied with a pretty long message saying sorry and explaining everything. Explaining the whole 2 weeks and a half she had been dating this guy.

Wait? Did you say 2 weeks and a half?


Just fucking great.

So there I am, speachless. Thank God I asked, right?

And I am so scared shitless because I feel like she's so far away and she won't talk to me. And how are you supposed to have a friendship - and not just any friendship, but a special one- with someone who won't bother telling you this stuff.

How are we going to survive?

Are we going to survive?

Oh, please, let us survive.

Say that some things never die. Well I tried and I tried.

martes, 9 de noviembre de 2010

About quotes and feelings

Randomly listening to: Forever Lost by The Magic Numbers

Promise me.
That's all I want. Just promise that you'll never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you'll always remember me. Losing you was hard enough but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you.

Darling, what'cha gonna do now? Now that you noticed it all went wrong.