martes, 26 de octubre de 2010

My first weekend home

Randomly listening to: Country Mile by Camera Obscura

When I felt the wheels of the plane hit the ground, I looked out the window and saw Madrid's airport. The girl beside me told her dad: "We are in Madrid" and those insignificant four words took me to the verge of tears. I said to myself, repeating the girl's words: "I'm in Madrid. I'm home."

It's remarkable how, after one entire month, when I stepped into my house, I felt as if I had never left. I settled between my parents on the sofa and watched TV with them as if I had been with them every day and there was nothing extraordinary about that day.

My first trip back home and I'm glad to see that, even though life goes on without me, when I get back, I can still catch up with it.

I wish you could be here with me. I would show you off like a trophy.

P.S. I've decided  from now on to use quotes from the songs I'm listening to at that moment which reflect best my feelings. How does that sound? 

lunes, 18 de octubre de 2010

Humble Intelligence Please

Randomly listening to: Dream on by Aerosmith

This Saturday I made a trip to London to see F2 and I met her very intelligent, very intellectual neighbour.

He is a complete asshole.

He was the typical person who thinks he is above everyone else in every way possible. The world revolves around him and he is always right.

His arrogance nauseated me.

All those big words, all those complicated concepts, all that confidence... But even I could find holes in his supposedly perfect ideas.

I, of course, didn't tell him any of this. I would say it is because I didn't want to make my friend uncomfortable, but really it's because I am a bit of a coward. If I was able though, I would tell him that you stop being better than the rest when you stop being humble.

PS. I love London :)

We're all broken enough to be humble.

viernes, 15 de octubre de 2010

Late Nights and Late Thoughts

Listening to: The world spins madly on by The Weepies

Oh, how I love this song...

I just came back from The Venue, our own on campus club! It was great fun, though my feet are really sore right now because I'm not that great on heels. It was my first time clubbing with my architecture people and it was definitely worth it. I think I found a good group of people to become friends with.

Before all the fun however, I found out that F1 and F2 aren't planning on going back to Madrid as we'd agreed for F3's birthday. I find that I am quite disappointed, even though I have no real, reasonable reason to be.

I'll explain a bit better: F1, F2, F3 and me where the Fantastic Four at school. We were best friends, we were sisters...We were everything for each other. But F1 is in Bristol now, F2 in London and F3 is still in Madrid...So yes, it is complicated.

I thought we would all try our hardest to make this work. It is, after all, like a long distance relationship: there has to be effort put by everyone. That is why we said we'd go back to Madrid for F3's 18th birthday. It just made sense. We would all be back together in our city for such a special occasion.

But now, they are saying they've spent all their money partying at uni and that really it won't be much time and why don't we just invite F3 to London the next weekend as a birthday present?

And it doesn't sound that unreasonable...Except, somehow, it does.

It would be childish of us to deny that our lives weren't changing. But for this night, none of us were going anywhere. That's the thing about really good friends and a really great Manhattan.

miércoles, 13 de octubre de 2010

About G

Randomly listening to: They might follow you by Tiny Vipers

So, G has a problem. G has a disability. It has something to do with his nervous system making him unable to walk a lot, but he hasn't talked about it since that day in facebook, and that's the only thing he said.

G and I are becoming good friends. He's my neighbour and I spend quite a lot of time with him. We laugh, we talk, we watch Glee... But he still doesn't trust me enough to explain. Maybe it's not that he doesn't trust me though, maybe he's just proud. Or too shy. I don't know...

What I do know is that G is the first disabled friend I have, and I feel awful because many times I don't know how to deal with it. Like today, we went to AZDA ( I just learnt that it's owned by Wal-Mart) and I kind of carried the bags because I didn't know if he could handle it.

I don't want to be the typical person who makes a big deal out of these things and is just annoying. I just want to help him.

But it is very hard to help someone when you don't know if they even want your help.

Show me a girl with her feet planted firmly on the ground and I'll show you a girl who can't put her pants on.

martes, 12 de octubre de 2010

New Beginnings and Never Endings

Randomly listening to : I'll be there for you by Bon Jovi

The start of university feels like the start of a new era, the start of a new life even.

 I am living in a room with a bathroom which I'm trying hard to make my own, so I can feel at home, but I can't seem to forget that outside that door my family is not there. It's just a corridor leading to locked doors of people I'm trying to stop thinking of  as strangers, and to a common kitchen. I feel so out of place in here, but I guess you get used to everything. Or so I hope.

I guess the song I'm listening to fits my mood, though I didn't even know it before today. I guess that with all this change I just want things to stay the same. I'm trying to hold tightly to my friends specially. I know I won't loose my family, but friends are another matter. Friends don't actually have to love you. And sometimes its hard to keep up with friends. I guess I just want to know that, whatever happens, they will be there for me...But I feel like they are so far away...

I guess this is my new life, and with it comes a new and very different blog. So lets make a toast for new beginnings and for never endings.

And I can't breathe without you, but I have to...