About changes

Randomly listening to: Use Somebody by Kings of Leon


Sometimes, you feel like you need a change in your life. It might not seem like a huge one from outside, but changes are always hard, so it seems huge to you.

Like cutting your hair.

Many people cut their hair radically after a bad breakup for example. It just feels relieving, like literally taking weight off of your shoulders. And at the same time, you feel like with that change, you've become this whole new person which, even though it's probably not true, makes you feel great.

So to everyone who is not going through the best of times, this is my very deep advice:

Cut you hair!


Believe me, it feels awesome.

I hope it's gonna make you notice...

can love really conquer the world?

Randomly listening to: Enchanted by Taylor Swift


There is something I think I will never understand:


When two people love each other, what exactly stops them from being together? 


I always thought that that kind of thing only occurred in television shows because keeping the couples together forever would seem very boring.


But maybe in real life that is also true? Maybe we get bored, maybe we don't value what we have enough, maybe we think that we should try something different, maybe we take what we have for granted.


And somehow, you end up realizing that you are getting further and further away from the only one you've ever loved and you wonder how you could ever let it happen.

Please don't be in love with someone else

To the girl who is replacing me...

Randomly listening to: Need you now by Lady Antebellum


These words are not mine, but they are what best describe what I'm feeling now...



To the girl who will replace me ...
There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes, and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. And please, don’t say I love you to him, unless you really mean it, nothing hurts him more then someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes, he won't tell you what he is feeling, but... just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him... He won't ever try to hurt you, because he just isn't that way, so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for... He will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names, despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature, most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile, in a way that words can not explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him, let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes, he will need his space, but don't worry... He'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met, so please don't take him for granite. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that, He will be so unselfish with it, because that is the way he is. Remember, He likes blue better than green, blonds better than brunettes, Republicans better than Democrats, Soft pretzels win over Steak, Kacki over denim, Leather over cloth, and even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear, you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard... He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart, the same way that my heart breaks apart, as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful attorney and won't ever let you give up on your dreams, either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you, because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him... Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so, for the rest of time... I promise, you will.

Said I wouldn't call  but I've lost all control  and I need you now...

Must I always be waiting waiting on you?

Randomly listening to: Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson


Whatever happened to keeping in contact? Whatever happened to making sure that distance didn't pull us apart? Whatever happened to our friendship being stronger than that? Whatever happened to fighting?


I know, I know, it has always been my role to be the one to reach out, to maintain that. I know, I know, you just expect me to keep doing that.


But I am so fed up.


Fuck. Don't you know that I have a life too?


The only difference between you and me is that I actually try.

And I wouldn't mind trying harder than the rest if I actually saw the rest trying.

 But I don't. I see no effort whatsoever and I just feel like you don't care.

And I just want to turn around and walk and walk till you run behind me and catch up with me.

But I'm so scared of having to walk forever and ending too far away from you.

I can 't  always be waiting waiting on you

And I just miss it all

Listening to: Nothing


I miss having someone to hug, someone to lean on, someone to count on completely. I miss knowing that someone loves me, that someone would do anything for me, that I mean the world to someone. I miss the kisses, the knowing smiles, the looks filled with love. I miss being called beautiful, feeling completely confident, made love to. I miss not having to miss all this, not having to look for it, not being disappointed by the search.

And you smiling at me pathetically makes my day

Randomly listening to: Free Fallin' by John Mayer


I love sitting around like a little kid again and watching cartoons all morning. I love dreams that you don't want to end and finding money that you didn't know you had. I love hugs from behind and inmature inside jokes. I love laughing till it hurts and being called beautiful. I love knowing you made someone's day. I love singing in the shower, talking for hours without running out of things to say and photography that captures the moment perfectly. I love those days where everything seems to go just the way you planned and I love feeling like you could just conquer the world.

Oh, I'm gonna leave this, this world for a while...

Sweep me off my feet, make me believe in fairytales

Randomly listening to: Romeo & Juliet by Dire Straits (The Killers version)


I stare. I stare. I stare.

You have to feel my gaze. It has to burn.

But again you prove me right when I say that I'm invisible. You don't even see me.

Its not like I think you are going to fall in love with me immediately, but at least a glance would be very much appreciated.

At least I wouldn't be sitting here, alone in my room, thinking what so many girls have thought before me and will think after:

What's wrong with me?


Why am I all alone?

And there's a place for us, you know the movie song. When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?